I’m not ready

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my boy

he still looks like a boy to me

My eldest son, the little chubby nugget that made me a mom nearly 13 years ago, is starting junior high. And I am so not ready. This was evidenced the night before last when I lost it in the Trapper Keeper aisle at Target.

My sweet boy recognized my misty eyes and wrapped his ever-growing arms around me while I cried. He told me “It’s going to be okay Mom.”

There are all sorts of things that you have to do before junior high in Nebraska, like get a physical. My husband took my son to get his before school physical, mostly so he could give him the 411 on what to expect, you know, down there…

But my hubby was the one who was surprised.

“That waiting room was full of teenagers,” he whispered at me when they got home. “Those girls BUTT CHEEKS were hanging out of their shorts!”

Neither one of us is ready, I guess.

I wasn’t ready to start Red Branch Media either. Despite having been 2nd in command at two pretty successful companies and holding executive level marketing positions (at funded start-ups), I got scared. Playing second fiddle isn’t always the worst you know, it means someone else can take the heat if you fail. While it can be a position of honor and hard work (and has been in my experience) it’s also a safer place than at the steering wheel.

When I started Red Branch up again in earnest, I was worried that I’d let down my clients, my contractors, my family, and frankly embarrass the crap out of myself. What if I couldn’t do it? What if being that person that stopped the buck was a load of BS?

So for a long time, I lived on the belief of other people. My clients, who are consistently awesome people with fantastic products. My colleagues, who continued to have faith in my, even when I had very little in myself. And my amazing family, who probably hear more about business to business marketing and workforce trends than anyone would ever want to know.

What I learned is that being ready is no reason to stop yourself from doing something. For me, the time was obviously right. I had grown out of the #2 spot and was ready to dictate the terms of how I worked and for whom. Here are some of the rules that I’ve come up with over the last year:

1) My price and offerings will never change to suit your needs. They are fair and competitive. If you can find it cheaper, better, with a cooler person, do it! No seriously, you should do it.

2) I don’t work with people I don’t like.

3) If I have to say no to your business, I will do my best to refer you to one of my kick A$$ colleagues.

4) I will say what I am thinking if I think it’s anyone’s business. Reigning in my oddities isn’t doing anyone, any favors, and anyways, it’s exhausting.

5) I spend as much time as I need just thinking about the work I do. If you are not pondering and wondering, then you are going to miss something for sure.

What needs to be done in your life that you aren’t ready for?

What if you did it anyway?